Will I Ever Learn?!

Why, oh why do I have to get my hopes up about a guy? When did my hope ever lead to anything apart from disappointment?!

Ben is younger than me. Although most people would not care, I do. It just feels so extremely wrong to like a younger guy, even if he's only a few months younger. I think it's got something to do with having a younger brother.

I feel like crying because it was so hard to make myself not care about ever being in a relationship and then having all these doors open to having a boyfriend (even if it's not him, but one of his friends) and then having all that hope crashed.

It's just NOT fair. My life sucks.