The adventures of an ambitious 23 year old who just wants to settle down with the Right Guy.
Free and Good
I love free stuff, especially (mostly, actually) if it's good quality free stuff. And with the internet, there's been an increase in this.
Free useful and current information, free music downloads, free games and today I found more good quality free sheet music. ABC Music has the newest popular original sheet music. My printer hasn't been as busy as today for a long time!
Googled
Lateley, I've been getting a LOT of visitors referred from google who searched for a picture that used to be in my blog. Does anyone know why google seems to find that picture on my site when it's not there anymore?
Uni Life
I can’t believe this is my last year of uni. It’s kinda sad. My course is very short so I’ll be finishing before my 21st birthday. I’ll really miss it, even though I expected it to be A LOT better (i.e. get a boyfriend and make close guy friends).
I finished early today so we (uni friends) all went out for lunch. I had some nice chats with the girls and lots of eye rolling at the guys’ immaturity which really was beyond any reasonable behaviour.
Justin (unlike other guys) was having a very deep conversation about politics and other adult dinner conversation topics which was totally on the other side of the scale of reasonable young adult behaviour. I have nothing against intelligent conversations but what he was saying was way too heavy for this occasion. Why can’t there be a guy who has the right balance between immaturity and depth?
Talked to a girl who hangs out with the ‘cool’ people about holidays and was surprised that she said that she didn’t leave her house for a week. I always thought she was the type of person to go out and party every night since that’s the type of people she is friends with. Sometimes people surprise me.
I noticed that Sally always wants me to come if everyone goes somewhere. It’s weird that I don’t find that clingy when I used to feel very uncomfortable when Amy did that.
Going Out With Adam Brody
Yesterday night I dreamt that I went out with Adam Brody. Throughout the whole dream I kept thinking, “Please, let this not be a dream, PLEASE let this not be a dream! This is so realistic it cannot POSSIBLY be a dream.” But of course, it was.
Told April about it when I saw her in the morning. She got upset that she didn’t have that dream since she likes him A LOT more than I do.
The Earth, My Butt and Other Big Round Things
It's been SO long since I read a book in (almost) one go. Ok, I admit it was a teenage fiction book but so what? It was so enjoyable I lost track of time. I was so involved in the story and the main character that I got very sad when it finished. I wish all books were like that.
Tutoring Episodes
Tutoring can be really entertaining sometimes. Especially when I tutor Aidan (the typical fourteen year old with an attitude).
Episode 1
me: This question just looks difficult but it really isn't.
Aidan: Yes it is
me: If you look at it, you'll see that you can do it
Aidan (gives it a glance): I looked at it and it's too difficult.
me: Well, I guess then you'll have to do it with difficulty.
Aidan: Difficulty! Where are you? I can't do it without you.
Episode 2
Aidan sees a map of South America and starts giggling (which is VERY unusual).
Aidan (giggling): You. Are. Gay.
me: what?!
Aidan: it says here.
me: that says Uruguay. It's a country.
Aidan (can't control his giggles, which is clearly embarrassing him): You. Are. Gay.
me: fine, laugh it out. I'll wait.
Aidan: Ok, I'm fine now.
me: let's do question ten.
Aidan (starts giggling again): Sorry, I'll stop.
Aidan (who clearly can't stop): I want to live there. I'm going to draw a smily face in it.
me: You've already drawn smiley faces in every rectangle on this page.
Aidan: I'll make this a special smiley. I'll draw two here. Oh, this country won't fit two smileys.
I had to control the urge to tell him about Uranus and Phuket. I think that would've been too much for the poor kid.
Another Life
I went shopping with Mum today and ran into Kelly (when she was working). She told me that Nora looked like a lollipop now because she is a size 6 now (before she was about 14). Couldn’t imagine her that skinny. Kelly was going to show her to me (since she works at the same place as Kelly) but then remembered that she was at a baby shower for a pregnant girl from my school. I knew the girl was pregnant but I really didn’t want to be reminded of it.
I want to be the married one who’s pregnant (although I’d like to finish uni first). I always wanted to get married at 20 and have my first kid at 21 and the second one at 23. Well, that’s definitely not happening. I so wish I had someone else’s life instead of mine.
My Mum had already met my Dad at my age. I want to be my Mum. Although that would mean I’d have a daughter like myself and I don’t know whether I’d be happy if my daughter was feeling the way I feel now.
When I was at the shops, there was a guy who reminded me of Max. It actually could’ve been him since I didn’t look at the guy’s face properly. Wish I could ask him about it but I won’t.
Late Night Ramble About The Usual
I won't be going to the party tomorrow. I didn't even ask Claudia if she will because I thought it would look bad if I decided not to because she won't be. I so wish I could stop caring how everything would 'look' because it may only 'look' like that to me. I want to change but it's so hard.
I'm terrified of ending up alone for the rest of my life which is such a likely prospect. It's not even just 'likely', it's highly probable. And I think I would be able to be more patient to meet RG if it was not for my fear of being an old parent. It's like there's a clock ticking over my head and the time is about to run out.
I know to many people, my thoughts are ridiculous and you might not understand at all what I'm going on about and lately I feel like this blog is not as anonymous as it has been in the beginning which makes me want to hold back more. I don't want to do that because I like being able to share my thoughts with people who don't interfere in my life. I'm not sure what exactly I like about it and therefore can't put it into words and try to explain.
I wrote an email to Max because right now I feel like I have no hope whatsoever in having any relationships with guys and this is like getting blood from a stone (his phrase). I didn't send it though. I decided to hold back and see if I still feel like sending it next week.
I feel like any guy would do now. As long as he's not sleazy, smokes or does drugs. My new criteria. Oh, and older. I don't care about anything else right now. He can be without an education, have a dumb job, I don't care. I just don't. This is how low I've sunk. Yes, very sad. Oh well, beggars can't be choosers. Oh my God, I can't even believe I just wrote that; I don't even talk like that. I'm slowly going insane.
at 11:34 pm
Inner Conflict
I'm having an inner conflict with myself again. Tomorrow, one of Christine's friends is having a party and said that she could invite anyone. April told me about this. We were planning on going because it's another great opportunity to meet new people. But it turned out that she won't be able to come. She said to call Christine to get the details.
I don't know if I want to go anymore because there won't be a single person that I'll know apart from Christine. One part of me thinks that that's a wonderful thing but the other side imagines how uncomfortable it will be.
Another problem is getting home. April said that Christine said that this guy's parties end at 4am so that means Christine will be there until then. And I will have to rely on her to get home and as we all know by now Christine is far from reliable. So I might be stranded there the whole night which I wouldn't mind if I knew the guy but I don't.
But I really want (no, need) to meet more people 'cause constant whining about not having a boyfriend and wishing that he would fall from the sky and land at my doorstep isn't helping.
This reminds me of Katie's party, but worse. It's worse because I'm not on best terms with Christine right now so it's almost like going to the party completely alone. If it was at a convenient place, I guess I could leave whenever if I didn't like it but it's not.
On the other hand, this could be SUCH a good opportunity to meet people...
I'm starting to go in circles now.
I should think of this as a logical problem. Ok... here's what I'll do. I'll ask Claudia if she'll be coming and if she is, she could give me a lift to the station and I'll have someone to talk to if I don't like the people there. If she's not, then I won't go and take comfort in the fact that I probably wouldn't meet anyone worth meeting there anyway. I mean, when was the last time I met someone interesting when I went out? Exactly.
Swearing And Live Bands
We went to see a band yesterday. They were pretty good. I wasn’t planning on going but then changed my mind. One thing that annoys me is when bands start saying f*** just for the sake of saying it. Actually, it’s anyone who does that annoys me. This reminds me of a scene from “Jessica”:
Jessica and her family are having dinner. She just got told off. Her sister, Meg, gives her a dirty look.
Jessica (under her breath so only Meg can hear): Fuck you.
Meg: Jessica swore at me!
Jessica’s Dad (to Jessica): What did you say?
Jessica (shouting at Meg): I said FUCK YOU!!
Jessica’s Dad (to Meg): That’s not swearing. Swearing is when you don’t mean it. And she meant it.
I love that scene. The point is – I hate swearing. Saying swear words when people don’t mean it, just takes out the strength of their meanings. So if you want to use them when you’re really angry or mad, they don’t have the same effect.
I got beer spilled on my bag, which I guess wasn’t as bad as beer spilling on April’s clothes. There was also a fight behind me causing someone else to almost spill more beer on me.
The guy next to me kept playing air drums. Not sure if it was because he was drunk. The guy in front of me, even though was standing a platform lower than me, was blocking my view and it didn’t help when he kept swaying from side to side so I couldn’t watch the band over from his side. I hate being short in these situations.
There was a cute guy who was so tall I could see him over everyone’s heads. He couldn’t see me. Sometimes I wish that I could stand out from the crowd. But what I wish more is to be able to go to concerts with a boyfriend. What else is new.
I love the atmosphere of listening to good live music, even though it does make me feel depressed about my single life.
Everyone went out tonight for dinner but I can’t afford to pay any more money for eating out. I don’t think I still fully realise how much money I will need for my trip to America.
Missing The Dance Class
The curse has been broken. After a little hitch (a few actually), I attended a dance class today. I can't believe I'm able to actually write that. There were numerous things (this time) that happened that made me almost miss it but I think my perseverance prevailed.
First thing that made me almost miss it:
I told Claudia to meet me at the wrong time accidentally (or was it...). This resolved when I realised this, I don't know how. I told her the correct time.
Second thing that made me almost miss it:
In the morning, before leaving, I decided to check the card (that had the dance class info) to make sure the times were right and everything. And I realised that the address was different to where I was planning on going. By a few letters. Thank God, I picked up on it. I don't even want to imagine going to the wrong place and finding out that the class was somewhere else.
Third thing that made me almost miss it:
When Claudia and I got there, there was a dance timetable at the entrance and it didn't have our class! I decided to ignore it and go in anyway because the card that I had said that there was a class today and that's what I wanted to believe.
When we got to the reception area, there was NO ONE there. I started to panic a little (well, a lot). Then some girl came out of nowhere and started talking to us. She said she's been to this class before and that it was definitely going to be on, even if no one else comes. We just had to wait for the teacher. The teacher came. No one else did. The girl left which I was glad because I didn't want to be compared to a professional dancer.
So Claudia and I got a private lesson. It was a bit awkward at first because we couldn't hide behind someone and if we made mistakes (which we did), it would be obvious (which it was). But the awkwardness quickly faded once I stopped caring whether I made mistakes or not and started the enjoy it.
The teacher kept getting distracted because he thought he knew me from somewhere and every now and then kept asking me if I was at (or went to) this or that place. I think I might've seen him that time when I went to the dance class that was canceled but I'm not sure.
The actual lesson was great! I absolutely loved it. Dancing always gives me such a high. (And fun exercise doesn't hurt). Claudia said she liked it but didn't want to go again any time soon. I don't really want to go alone if I'm going to be the only student. Maybe I can still find a way to get to the class that's a bit too far for me...
Another First
This week there's been another first for me. I watched an Australian movie that I actually loved. Never thought that would happen. But it did. "Jessica" was excellent. I really didn't expect to love yet another movie about the outback which had such a typical Austalian storyline.
I haven't read the book because after "The Power of One" that still sits on my bookshelf unread after numerous attempts (and which movie I also quite enjoyed), I'm not expecting to be able to get through this novel.
And anyway, I can never read books after watching movies based on them.
Nadine
As you know, I went to Nadine's house today. It was almost like old times. We talked for hours about everything. She even showed me a story that we wrote when we were younger that she apparently adds to every now and then. It was hilarious. It has such classic one-liners that I wish I could share with you but I can't.
She also showed me heaps of stuff that she got from America which was cool, and made me feel as if I'm already there. She got this huge rainbow poncho and said that she would wear it to uni. I asked if she cared if everyone would think it's weird and she said, "People will judge me anyway so I don't care". I really admire that sort of confidence. (I care way too much what everyone thinks of me.) This probably plays a big part in what attracts people to her. She apparently has a whole line of male admirers that she rejected. It's amazing how much people love those who don't care about how they are perceived. This to me is like that bit in Harry Potter when the kids had to relax while they were being strangled by snakes in order to be freed from them.
We are now talking on MSN which is new. Maybe it'll make us keep more in touch. I really miss talking with her like we used to.
Ever since I became really close friends with April, I keep comparing her to Nadine. Which is stupid because they are two completely different people. April is very conservative and would think hundred times before doing something while Nadine is the most outgoing person you would meet and does everything based on emotion. When I'm with April, I get pulled down to earth or into an imaginary dreamland where reality seems boring in comparison but with Nadine I get dragged into the craziest REAL situations (which always give me such a high).
I guess they are friends to my two contradictory personalities. April is friends with the serious introverted part while Nadine is friends with the childish extroverted one.
But somehow I always feel closer to Nadine. Even if I don't talk to her for months. I really don't know why.
Nadine and Me
I love it when I find a blog that can really touch me in some way and that hasn't happened for a while. Until I found "Anna and Me". Anna and Marie remind me so much of how Nadine and I used to be. We used to keep notebooks where we wrote each other letters and then exchanged them. We did this all through primary school, high school (when we could only meet up in the holidays) and a bit through uni. Sometimes that would be the first thing that we would do when we met up – we would exchange notebooks and read each other’s letters. Then we developed a code where we would put special symbols around the bits that we would read after the other one would leave. I would read and reread what Nadine wrote because it made me laugh and just feel special in general. She used to do the same. It was like writing in a diary but with someone reading it and giving feedback. A bit like blogging, I guess.
A while ago I was reading the notebooks that I have (we split them in half, almost in a divorce sort of way) and it made me see how much we changed from the curious and over-sensitive preteens, through dreamy Backstreet Boys obsessed teenage years to the beginning of our adulthood. It’s an amazing record of our friendship and something I will always cherish. It’s weird looking back on all the childish promises we made to be friends forever and not having anything getting between us (like boys, for example, which is funny because that’s exactly what made us drift apart).
I feel like I’m on the verge of too much sentimentality so I’ll stop here. I’ll be seeing her tomorrow (after about 4 months of not talking). You will be able to read the full report here tomorrow.
Loving Winter And The Secret Treasure Chest.
Finally, it feels like winter. Freezing cold and just wonderful. I’m not being sarcastic in the slightest. I may be one of the very few people who like cold weather. To be more precise, I like being warm in cold weather. Everything feels cosier and more comforting.
It was so windy today that the electricity went out for about 30 minutes and it was already dark. After I realised that the darkness was going to last more than just a couple of minutes (the way it usually does), it quickly hit me how difficult it would’ve been when people lived without electricity (something that I’ve always taken for granted).
My eyes had nothing to focus on but shadows which made me want to close them. But since I didn’t want to go to sleep, it felt weird doing that. Then I realised that it was a great excuse not to do anything that put pressure on my eyes (i.e. computer, TV, reading etc.) and I started to enjoy it.
My Dad went to my grandparents so my Mum, Andrew and I sat on the couch amongst blankets and cushions and talked. It was great family quality time. I don’t think we all have ever just sat around and talked without being distracted by other things (especially my Mum who always has to do at least two things at once).
It was nice to stay home today in such cold weather.
Yesterday, I (and April, Claudia and Christine) went out and as usual I didn’t put on enough clothes. It was so cold, I couldn’t stop shaking.
We went out for dinner which wasn’t very eventful. Sometimes it’s nice to eat quietly with others without having any awkward silences or very demanding conversations. Yesterday was just that. The only peak of our conversation was Claudia telling us about rejecting a guy (that she met at a dance party) who asked her out. (This is the guy that Christine passed on to her after deciding that she didn’t like him.) The other peak was them teasing me about Ben when Claudia asked me about him after everyone making such a big deal last week when I thought I saw him. Christine was saying how I got a secret boyfriend (since she doesn’t know the exact details). I quite enjoyed that so if anyone ever feels like teasing me about my non-existent boyfriend, they are welcome to do so.
After dinner we split up. Christine and Claudia wanted to play video games (something that I can’t stand) so April and I went to some bar that was supposed to have live music. When we got there, we didn’t hear any live music (probably ‘cause it was still a bit early) but what we did find was a guy heaven. We finally found a place that had respectable looking guys OUR AGE and there were SO MANY of them!
We stayed at that place for no more than ten minutes (one of which took finding a non-discrete place to wipe our running noses from the freezing cold that we came from, another two checking the place out, two minutes to find a good spot to place ourselves, another two to develop a code for cute guy sightings and two to use the developed code, and one to take a call from Claudia telling us that she was getting picked up and to go and say our good-byes). So we left the bar, promising to come back soon. We waited with Claudia until her brother came and then went home (since Christine had to get up early today and April was getting a lift with her).
At least now we know where all the guys our age are hiding on Saturday nights.
Surprise Surprise
I won't be going to the dance class that I was planning on going to today. I don't even want to talk about it. The universe is against me.
When April And I Die
April: I told you, some people just aren't meant to find true love. Some people die alone.
me: if you die before me, I will be with you when you die :P
Did you take the life expectancy test?
April: yes!!!! I was so annoyed!!!!! How dare they ask about our love lives! I had to choose 'non-existent'!!!!
me: I'm glad they had that option. So when will you be dying?
April: 84, what about you?
me: 90, so I guess I'll be at your bedside when you die.
April: so I'll be first
me: and I'll die alone
April: you're right, at least I won't die alone :P
But who knows, maybe in the remaining 6 years, u'll meet a hot guy down at the retirement home
me: lol!!!! A hot 90 year old???
April: oh yeah, of course.
me: unless I get over my "can't date a younger guy" thing
April: yeah u won't care when u r 84 and the only other 'forever single' person has died.
Luck
Finally some luck came my way! I've got my new timetable and the planned times for the subjects changed but to my advantage so now I get a day off. I'm so happy about that! It should make up for my horrible timetable in the last semester.
Nadine and Amelia
Guess who called in the morning? Nadine must've read my mind (or my blog) because after telling her that I was planning on calling her tomorrow, she said that she wasn't going to be home then.
We talked for a while. I sensed that not everything was great but she didn't go into it. I wish she could tell me what was on her mind like before. I miss discussing details of our lives. Now we just talk about things on the surface which sucks.
I told her that I wanted to see her American photos and she said that she just wanted to see me. That made me feel a bit rude. I'm going to her house next week. Maybe we can talk properly then. I really want to know what's been going on in her life. Her summary of "Going out. Parties. Guys. Crap." doesn't tell me much.
After talking to her, I went to meet Amelia. We saw "Mean Girls" which I have to say I really enjoyed. Amelia thought it was better than "Shrek 2". I didn't think it was worse. We then walked around looking for a pair of jeans for her and a good photo opportunity for me. I started to carry my camera around with me because I always want to take photos when it's not with me.
Amelia decided to come to a dancing class with me next week ("The Life Expectancy Test" also affected her when it said that we need to get our heart rate up for at least 30 minutes a day). I thought of canceling this Saturday but then realised that if I do, then there might be some reason that next week's dance class won't happen. It'd be funny if I end up going to 2 dancing classes in one week!
Calling Nadine
Contemplated on calling Nadine today but didn't. I wonder why I keep putting it off. Maybe I'm waiting for her to call...
Really want to see her photos. Maybe I'll call her on Wednesday. No, not maybe. I will call her on Wednesday. I don't know why calling her seems like such a chore that I 'should' do, rather than 'want' to. Although, I do want to see her photos...
The closer my trip to America, the more I get obsessed about it. I've decided to make a soundtrack of songs that mention places that Lauren and I will be visiting. Can't find a good one for New Orleans (or Louisiana). Does anyone know of any? Actually, if you have any suggestions about good songs that contain lyrics (or are about) the following places - California, LA, New Orleans, Louisiana, Las Vegas, New York, Arizona, Phoenix or anything about USA in general, let me know.
Another Attempt.
I'm planning on trying to go to a dance class this Saturday (since I have to work then, during the school term). I wonder what will prevent me from going this time...
I would go during the week but they finish too late to walk to the station by myself.
I watched the "Life Expectancy" test yesterday. I'm supposed to live up to 89.7 years. I'm planning on living longer. I've decided to start eating fish and continue not to ride on motorbikes.
When Nothing Is Fun.
Today was the epitome of proper holidays.
April woke up me up at 10am. Actually I woke up earlier but I needed an excuse to get out of my warm bed. April's call was as good as any excuse (such as my stomach rumbling for breakfast or wanting to go to the toilet - you know, the usual reasons).
We ended up talking for almost an hour about weekend plans which ended up to be nothing (due to transport problems, time problems, people problems and general inconveniences which I guess would encompass all the previous).
Decided to go to her house to continue the conversation. Postponed big weekend plans for next week. Had a lazy day watching "I Love Lucy" episodes and talking about the usual topic of conversation. We always go through phases where we only talk about one thing. It used to be our TV show, now it's our loveless lives. Somehow I think this topic we'll be discussing for a while.
Visited my grandparents on the way home which was nice. They love hearing about my trip to America and I love talking about it so it works both ways. Andrew was nice enough to pick me up so that was cool.
I love lazy days like that.
High Expectations. Revelations. Future Planning.
Yesterday was a nice day. My holidays just highlighted the fact that I didn't go out much during uni. It's fun to be able to go hang out with my friends almost every day.
Yesterday we (the usual 5) went to see Shrek 2. It wasn't as crowded as I thought it would be. I really enjoyed it although by what people were saying, I was expecting to roll around laughing hysterically. I'm not saying it wasn't funny but I don't know if I was laughing more because everyone else was laughing or because I found it really funny. Andrew told me that he loved the ending so I was eagerly waiting to see what it would be. But I found it very predictable, not like the first movie. I think my expectations were too high and that's always a bad idea.
We had lunch at an Asian restaurant opposite the cinemas. The food was great. The conversation was a bit better. Claudia and Christine went to some dance party on the weekend and some guy that they met sent Claudia the corniest message. April and I offered our translations of what he meant (since we had lots of practice analysing the most insignificant things). I accidentally got Christine to say that the guy actually asked her to dance first and then she sent him to Claudia 'cause she didn't like him. Claudia was a bit surprised at this revelation. Well, it's Christine so April and I expect things like that from her.
Amelia brought up the 'bus guy' who I've actually stopped thinking about but it's sweet that she remembered. Since I don't really tell Christine my trivial guy stories, she got very interested. Didn't really get a chance to explain it. Although kept thinking how unfair it was that I never saw him again.
In the afternoon, Christine left and the rest of us went shopping. Well, Amelia and Claudia actually shopped while April and I sat outside the shops and talked. All we seem to talk about is how we'll be 30 and never have any relationships. Except when we talk about it, we seem to find it extremely funny. We already decided to share therapy costs by going together, since we'll probably need professional help by then.
Caught the train home with April. There was a guy sitting in front of us who looked like BG and got off at BG's stop. But I'm pretty sure it wasn't him.
Talked to April on MSN till late.
Spying. Addiction. Diets. Amelia and Ashalea. Nadine.
Sometimes I get this knot in my stomach for some unconscious reason. Like something's missing (my love life, probably). Everytime this feeling comes over, I feel like babbling in here about nothing in particular.
Random fact: I like to search people I know in the search engine and see what comes up. Must be the nosy side of me. But I prefer to call it curious.
Sometimes I feel like I'm addicted to information. Like I need to satisfy my brain by finding something interesting about the world. Even if it's something that doesn't involve a lot of brain power to understand. Actually that's the type that I like best. Maybe that's why I love reading and watching TV so much. Easy absorption of lots of information (especially the latter).
In other news, I put on extra weight after I went off my diet. This would be understandable if I put back on what I lost but the annoying thing is that I put on more than I had before. This is very frustrating cos my clothes are getting tight. This is the reason why people should never go on bad diets voluntarily. The best way to lose weight permanently is to eat healthy ALL THE TIME, not just for a few weeks or months.
I watched the Big Brother eviction tonight. Was a bit annoyed that Bree went cos she was interesting to watch. Ashalea reminds me so much of Amelia!!! I keep forgetting to write that. She's smart but acts all airy-fairy. They even have a very similar style and look 'a bit' alike. Hey, even their names are similar! (I just realised.)
I'm seeing Amelia and the others in a couple of days. Haven't seen them for a while so miss them a lot.
I should call Nadine and see what she's up to. Still haven't seen her photos from America. It's so weird how we don't talk much anymore. But I won't go into reminescing about old times.
Well, I feel better now that I typed out my flow of thoughts. Blogging is so therapeutic.
The Party
So I did go to Katie’s party yesterday. I fixed my problem of going there alone by meeting up with Sophia first. Some problems are so easy to resolve – if only everything was that simple.
I won’t say that it was a great party but it was ok. There wasn’t much of an opportunity to mingle because everyone stayed with their friends. That was a bit disappointing. But the most disappointing thing was that there were no guys that I even wanted to mingle with and get to know. I spent most of the night talking with Sophia, Sally and Sam. Sam was on a constant high as usual. He gave me the weirdest compliment that only a design student would give. Don’t want to say it here in case he ever reads it but if you want to know, tell me and I’ll email you. I think I’ll write in my (paper) diary so I won’t forget. Now, why can’t a guy that I like say something like that to me?
Mark was there. I’m not even sure why he came cos he’s not really friends with Katie. He sat in the corner for most of the night, right behind me. I pretended he wasn’t there. I think he pretended the same. If he really wanted, he could’ve come up and talked to me – he was sitting only a chair away. Jack was there too but he was far which was the way I liked it. Fortunately, Fabian didn’t come but Warren decided to take his place and annoy me. He wasn’t that bad though. He’s having a birthday party in a week but I don’t really feel like going. He’s not inviting any of his high school friends so no new people to meet (and that’s the only reason I go to parties :P).
At the end of the night I got into my sad mood of wishing I had a boyfriend because so many people there were with their boyfriends/girlfriends. I also feel that I’m stuck in a particular circle of people that makes it so hard for me to meet a guy that I would like. But I don’t know how to break out of that.
Oh my God, I just realised that I accidentally posted an entry in my Guide! Oops. Sorry for any confusion!
Booking American Flights Online
I've been having a 'slight' problem with booking flight tickets online within the U.S. It turns out that all major online booking sites only accept registration from people who live in the U.S. And the very few Australian ones have prices that are double the American ones. And I really don't feel like paying an extra $700.
Not exactly sure what to do about this. Does anyone know of sites which allow to book online from Australia for flights within America and don't cost twice as much?