Heaven

Talked to David and everything's fine now. I was being over-sensitive. Nothing unusual when I'm sick. He seemed to find this quite funny.

I said, "All you care about is that I get better by Friday so we could go out".
He said, "Yes, so?"
I said, "You wouldn't care if I get better otherwise".
He said, "Of course I do!"
I said, "That's not what you said".
He said, "Well, that's what I meant".
I said, "So when you said, 'Stop bludging', you really meant, 'Get better soon'?"
He said, "Yes!"

I said, "I told you I don't have a sense of humour when I'm sick. You should be nicer to me then".
He said, "I'm always nice".
I said, "No, you're not".
Silence.
I said, "Why aren't you laughing anymore?".
He said, "I don't have a sense of humour now".
I said, "Why not?"
He said, "It went on a break."
I said, "Yeah, it overdid itself."
He started laughing.
I said, "I thought it was on a break".
He said, "The break ended. It's back to pick on you again".

So amidst all this laughing he told me that last week when he was feeling down and was thinking about me, he dedicated a song to me on the radio. He was listening the whole week so he could tape the dedication and then surprise me. But he didn't hear it so he thought he'd just tell me.

I was seriously stunned. David dedicated a song to me?!!!

I asked him if he had the email he sent to the program and he said he didn't. Damn. I would've LOVED to read it! I asked him what he wrote and he said, "Oh, just how we met and how I feel about you".

I must've been jumping out of my skin. I wanted to know every single word! I tried to get out of him what he wrote. He said something about how I was always there for him, when he was sad and when he was happy. I asked, "Did you say you loved me?" and he said, "Of course".

Every time I listened to that radio program, I always wondered what song David would dedicate to me if he ever rang up. (You know how my mind gets carried away.) And he dedicated the 'perfect' one:

Heaven by Bryan Adams (David's the only other person I know who likes this singer. I just imagine David's singing those words to me.)

Oh - thinking about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free

Now nothing can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me coming back for more

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven

And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh - once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feeling down

Yeah - nothing could change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
'Cause our love will light the way

And baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven

And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've been waiting for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are coming true
Through the good times and the bad
Yeah - I'll be standing there by you

And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Although now, I will never know exactly what he wrote, I find so much comfort in that really sweet and thoughtful gesture, that I don't think I can get upset at his 'lack of sensitivity during sickness'.

Before we hung up, he said, "Hope you feel better".

How can I not?