Ouch

Ouch

Just read April's and my private blog and I feel a pang inside. She already met lots of nice and smart guys and it was just her first day. I can already see her getting a boyfriend in the near future and I won't be able to share my pain with anyone anymore.

I guess this is how she felt when I had that 'date' that went nowhere. But unlike my bleak outcome, she has all the opportunities of getting exactly what she wants. And it's great for her and I know she wants to share all this new hope for a happy future with me but it's just like being punched at an already sore spot. All of that acts as a reminder that I have no opportunities for such things. And I was doing so well getting myself distracted...